LadyNada
Feb 8 2006, 09:32 PM

pjbaby gave me great advice about posting a testimony here regarding my New Age nickname. I agreed and will write it out here unscripted.

:popcorn

I said the sinner's prayer in 1979 @ the age of 20 and started reading the bible and learned and asked for the Holy Spirit. I attended a local Baptist church for about 2 years and was baptized with my mother by immersion. doveleaf:

Years later I would look back and realize that I actually believed in Jesus when I was around 5 years old when I heard the gospel imbedded within a rock and roll song called "Spirit In the Sky". We had a picture of Jesus on our wall in those days, and when I heard in the lyrics about Jesus, I believed in Him fully at that time. So my conscious sanctification process of wanting to be led by the Spirit began in 1979.

In the 1980's I was heavily interested in the Eschatology because I believed we were living in the last days. I asked the Lord to allow me to be a witness for Him of what was happening on our world. This idea was inspired by the Holy Spirit and I developed a habit of believing that God was looking at the world THROUGH MY EYES.
:totally shocked

This habit trained me to talk to the Lord constantly in my daily living. I read as many books about Daniel, and Revelation and end times. I stopped going to church after about two years, and studied one on one with the Lord and the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit would reveal understandings to me all the time and I became accustomed to that guidance as my normal way of living. I would take my Bible to work at the supermarket and read it on my break time never once feeling ashamed as I considered it totally normal.

By 1992 I was frustrated with the Bible related end times books as I was not getting any new inspirations. I prayed to the Lord one day to allow me to go and read other philosophies but to keep me stayed in Him no matter what. The Spirit led me to a book called "The Ancient Wisdom" by Annie Besant which was a theosophy book about the dimensional levels of the creation. As I read this book, the Holy Spirit would teach me from the Bible things related to what I was reading; a kind of filling in the gaps with Truth.

I continued to get all kinds of books including pseudographic, apocryphal, and other extra-biblical non-canon writings. And from there I also read many science books especially physics and esoteric writings about the nature of the universe. By 1993 I met a fellow named Walter in a message forum in a network called FIDONET (this is before internet). Walter was a believer in Jesus but followed New Age thinking and studied the UFO phenomenon.

I never had a personal interest in UFO stuff, but I created a network for people to discuss all things paranormal and spiritual and political, called SEARCHNET. I was also a hobbyist computer programmer at that time, so I ran a three line Bulletin Board System which shared messages worldwide. And I was well known as a Cross-poster, someone who posts the same messages all over the place. Walter and I also developed net etiquette which was translated to the internet once that became popular. By the middle 1990's I had achieved official NET-KOOK status on the Internet, which is an honor. That title meant that I achieved a good saturation of available usenet groups with information and our guidelines for net etiquette which was to allow people to post their views without being attacked for them. We also trained people how to spot PsyOps agents on the forums.

At some point in the late middle 90's God directed me to change my focus. I gave away my international mailing lists to guy named Steve, and left it in one day. I had learned much about being a moderator and NOT having a need to be vindicated. My focus turned to IRC CHAT where I spent several years on a friendly and loving network and a room called #BRIDGE. The New Age people sincerely seek God by faith and practice love. Some were Christians too. I was not there to witness to people; I was there as a Christian who was into the same things they were. I learned all about their channellings and the entities and their agendas and teachings. The whole time the Holy Spirit was teaching me by reminding me of Bible Verses related to what I was learning.

I was not being indoctrinated, as I was free in Christ to make up my own mind. As an example, when I read their doctrine about becoming one with the Absolute, I remember praying to God, "No offense, but I do not want to be merged with you and have my unique identity destroyed". The Spirit guided me the whole time and I was able to discern the flaws and deceptions in the theosophical and New Age belief structures. For example, seeking Nirvana is actually seeking to be destroyed, or nihilism, to go back to the nothing. I even studied a little Kabala and the Spirit of God gave me understandings that their idea of going BACK UP the tree was to be destroyed, whereas God's will was to perfect the Creation and create a KingDom of Heaven on Earth in the physical. So the Lord was showing me His Will in relation to all these universal philosophies.
:back to topic

It was Walter who gave me the nickname LadyNada because he said that the Spirit was telling him that I was a "Communications Officer". My spirit was in agreement with this job title because that is exactly what I was. I studied what little info there was about this LadyNada character and her attributes fit me perfectly. After I left the mailing lists, forums and usenet groups, I was on IRC and I was led to study a series of what became seven books which were alledgedly channelled by God Himself.

Now I will not name these books because you have to be led to them, or else they are a HUGE, I repeat HUGE stumbling block; you would trip and cut your head wide open. But the Spirit confirmed to me that I was to read them. I have to, here summarize only a few points about these books. The main theme of these books is about how the Holy Spirit is misunderstood as the Will of God. Some secondary focuses were on why Free Will is so hated in creation (thus the inordinate need by some to control others), why there is heartlessness in creation, and why the physical is considered to be a curse. In other words, the subject matter was God telling a select few some of the mysteries of why things are the way they are. I say select few because the author, a woman, who channelled them, did not advertise them anywhere. One had to be led to them.

This testimony is going to turn into a hard saying, I can feel it. The main characters in the series of books were God the Father (Mind), the Holy Spirit (His Will), the Son (His Heart), and Manifestation ( His Body or the Physical Realm). Now here is where it gets dicey. In the books there was another mysterious character called "Heart Daughter". I had a private mailing list for people who were studying the books, and no one else but me was as interested in Heart Daughter. They were mostly interested in the Holy Spirit's Realm over our Emotions. This study is why you heard so much about men and women learning to get in touch with their emotions in the 1990's. This was solid good work, because people had been denying or burying their true feelings and the Holy Spirit wanted people to get free of this bondage.

So, anyways, I began to focus ALL my attention on understanding who this Heart Daughter character was, and how, if any, way did she fit into the Bible. Very little was told about her in the books, and mostly only in one book. I read that one book and made notes, SEVEN TIMES.

Well the good news is I found out who she is. Without getting into a lot of science about magnetic fields and electrical fields, and the alternate colored dots in the Yin Yang symbol, the best way I can explain Heart Daughter to Christians is to say that her realm is the attribute of God to always give you what you need, NO MATTER WHAT. You see, these books end up teaching you about the seven attributes of God. This info is not needed for a christian to be saved, but I needed it so I could pray over issues regarding them and the rebellion by the Adversary, in the Earth Realm. Basically, I was an intercessory prayer warrior this whole time.

In August of 2002 I had a complete breakthrough in my studies about this Heart Daughter attribute of God always giving you exactly what you need. It has to do with the Heart of man. :heart

You notice we always draw the heart with two humps. One hump is Jesus or the Heart Son who sacrificed Himself for our sins. The other hump is Heart Daughter who makes sure that you always get exactly what you need to lead you to Heart Son's Salvation. Just today, someone posted a vision on For Zion's Sake about a woman who represented the Church meeting Jesus at a banquet table and handing HER HALF a HEART to Him. He healed all her pains and sorrows and handed her back HIS WHOLE HEART.

Now, as an aside, my studies of how the universe or creation works led me to understand that God created us with NO HEART; this is the heart of stone. In that book series it was explained as a courtyard surrounded by stone blocks in the which the Heart Daughter character would hold meetings and flick people with little flames of fire (this I realized was the cleansing fire of the Holy Spirit). The reason we are made with a hole where our hearts should be is so that we would come to God to receive the whole heart from Jesus.

In 2002 I left IRC and the few New Age mailing lists I was on. I left them a goodbye message with some scripture verses showing them that the entities they were channelling were the fallen angels, and to go with JESUS ONLY. The Lord told me to enter His Rest in August 2002, my primary mission was complete. Everyone was given their Heart Daughter Half a Heart. Everyone, saved or unsaved. Why? So that her attribute would supply all that they needed to lead them to salvation.

Now, just today with that one vision I read on that forum, I have come full cirlce complete, because it was seen that the Church is presenting her half a heart to Jesus, which He heals and adds His half, and returns to the Church the Whole Flesh Heart.

:back to topic

So, why have I kept the nickname LadyNada? Well, during my intercessory work while hanging out for ten years with New Agers, I was doing Jeremiah work in the spirit realm.

Jer 1:10 See, I have this day set thee over the nations and over the kingdoms, to root out, and to pull down, and to destroy, and to throw down, to build, and to plant.

I was taking back the realms that the Adversary said were his, and the names of the things that he polluted with his perversions and with the understandings given to me by the Holy Spirit, I was sanctifying (setting them apart) back to God. So I did that with the office of the LadyNada character who is known to New Agers as a champion of the common people, as an advocate. I was to claim everything from NOTHING TO SOMETHING (something being all physical manifestation or the Divine Body of God) back to God. I completed that mission in 2002.

So, in 2005 right after the Tsunami event, I was led back to IRC, only this time to a Christian Network. :amen

I made the decision then, to keep my nickname LadyNada because there is now no more taint to it. And now here recently I was led BACK to message forums, and kept the same nickname.

how is that for making a long 27 year story, SHORT?!

nada


TWO HEARTS COMBINED by Lanna Perry 2/8

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TWO HEARTS COMBINED by Lanna Perry 2/8

Two Hearts Combined
Lanna Perry



"Two Hearts Combined - YOU and I forever intertwined"

I had a vision, in this vision I was taken into the throneroom with Jesus. Jesus invited me to sit at a large banquet table. Jesus was sitting at the banquet table, and He had prepared a seat for me, right opposite Him at the table.

He lent over the table, and He grabbed my hands. Looked lovingly into my eyes and told me how much He loved me and adored me. He then told me, He wanted to share something with me.

Then before me, I saw Jesus inviting people to come and eat with Him at this banqueting table. To eat of the delicious revelations and manna that He had prepared for them. I saw a young woman (who I believe is representative of the body of Christ) I looked in her hands and I saw half of her heart. She was holding onto this half of her heart so tightly.

Jesus began to speak to her of His great love for her, and His delight in spending time with her, when she interrupted Jesus and said that she had to go out and do something and would be right back.

The next scene that flashed before my eyes, was this young woman. She was running to her spouse and family, and trying to fit her half heart into the hearts of others. It wouldn't fit. She ran to her materialistic possessions trying to fit her half of her heart into them, and it wouldn't fit. I saw her trying to fit her half of her heart into job titles, and ministry titles, yet her half heart, just wouldn't fit completely. She pushed, and pushed and pushed, but to no avail. This half of her heart was just not meant to fit in these places.

Tired and weary, she walked back into the room where Jesus was sitting. He was sitting patiently, head bowed, praying for her. As she walked into the room, His eyes lit up, with sheer delight and a sparkle that touched every part of her being.

She sat down, and began to weep. Telling Jesus of her discontentment, her disappointment, and her broken heart. She began to tell Jesus of her deep sense of despair and lack of purpose and belonging. Her sadness that no one sees. Knowing not where she truly fits in, where she can truly rest and not have to perform.

Jesus lifted her head, and showed her His heart. Right in the very centre of His heart was a mould, a mould that was the shape of a heart. A heart within His heart.

He looked at her, with a great sense of delight and said "here". She reached forward, and placed the half of her heart into the very centre of Jesus' heart.

Tears welled in her eyes. For she realised that where she truly belongs is being united with Him, but not half heartedly. She looked deep inside herself and saw the other half of her heart, hidden deep within a place that no one could reach. This part of her heart held life's burdens, wounds, and disappointments. Bruised and battered. She reached deep inside of herself and took out this other part of her heart. She placed it in the hands of Jesus.

He leant forward weeping with delight in the beautiful surrender before Him. Placing both of His hands over His chest, He took the pain for her. He bore her disappointments, He bore her pain. In return, He gave her His heart. He placed within her, His heart.

She felt alive in a way she had never felt. She felt like she could finally breathe.

He spoke softly to her, "two hearts combined, you and I forever intertwined"

You belong in Jesus. When all else is stripped away, your constant foundation is Jesus Christ.

Your heart is united with Christ forevermore. Your life, is your intimacy and relationship with Him. Not meeting Him once in a while at His table, but feasting with Him daily, you will grow in ways you never dreamed, and the eyes of your heart opened to your Saviour in greater depths.

Do you meet with your Saviour, to truly see His heart?

You don't have to run back and forth, to find where you belong. To find a place of contentment, to find a place of healing and peace. You have it right before you. Within you.

There is a seat at the banquet table with your name on it. Jesus is sitting waiting for you at the banquet table. Jesus longs to show you, who you are.

Jesus leans over the table, and holds the hands of this young woman. His eyes meet hers. He looks deep within her where no one else can, and He whispers

"Two hearts combined, you and I forever intertwined"

Finally she has found her home Smiley

Anyone can do a search on the net and archives of usenet postings and find out what I have been doing over all these years.  I will post some of the things I have found on this thread for those who are more curious about me.

---

Glenda Stocks
Originally posted in AEN_CHAT on Sunday, 5/8/94

My feelings today:

I want to thank everyone who participates in the two AEN echoes.  I
get information, good discussion, and a good feeling from the
conferences.

Being that I am accustomed to moving information, as cross-posts, I
very often read something here, worth showing to others in such
conferences as Fido CIVLIB, ANEWS, PNEWS, Internet's alt.conspiracy,
alt.civil.liberty, and the UWSA (perot) mailing list.  BUT... as of
lately, I am finding that the kind of information we discuss, and our
viewpoints elaborated in discussion, are for one reason or another,
not really welcome in these other conferences.  Today, I even thought
about how some single postings could actually be taken out of context,
if moved to another conference; not because the single post cannot
stand on it's own and make it's point, but because there is something
to the atmosphere in reading AEN postings both before and after that
single post, which is lost when cross-posted.

Sometimes, in some other echoes, you can feel like you are speaking a
different language than most everyone else, and especially different
than the most vocal people in the other conferences; those who feel
they must comment on every single thread in a conference.

There seems to me there comes a saturation point, in a conference that
one cross-posts to, where there are no comments that signify that
anyone is interested in the material, and there are only comments that
signify that your material and you, are not wanted.  Once that point
is reached, it seems sensible to voluntarily censor oneself; by
discontinuing to participate in the conference.

But still the question remains, as to the fact that worthwhile
information and viewpoints are then not made available to a wider
audience.  To this lack, I must admit that the conferences in question
are aware of where the information was coming from, and if anyone were
interested, he could find a way to access AEN, or searchnet, or our
searchnet mailing list, and our two echoes on fidonet now (CHANNELS,
I_UFO), as well as other worthwhile conferences in other networks.

There comes a time where real, quantifiable time and energy must be
re-directed to more fruitful and productive causes; causes such as
helping each other in the conferences where we _are_ welcomed, and
making those avenues of communication active and flame-free.

To this end, I plan to gradually decrease my participation in
conferences where my personal postings and other's cross-postings have
been unwelcomed, but I will continue to monitor them, to reply to
comments directed to me.  I will also post information on how to
access AEN, searchnet, and our mailing list, on a once a month basis,
in conferences where such a posting is allowed.

I consider this time, a turning point, in my own mission of outreach.
A time to turn toward edifying the communications connections that we
have created.

I support those people who, in their varying fields of interest, are
working toward creating a world where all people:

are free
exercise their God-given inalienable rights
respect the opinions, beliefs, and knowing of others
respect our Earth
and are allowed to feed, clothe and shelter themselves

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Two Hearts Combined

Lanna Perry

 

 

"Two Hearts Combined - YOU and I forever intertwined"

 

I had a vision, this vision I was taken into the throneroom with Jesus. Jesus invited me to sit at a large banquet table. Jesus was sitting at the banquet table, and He had prepared a seat for me, right opposite Him at the table.

 

He lent over the table, and He grabbed my hands. Looked lovingly into my eyes and told me how much He loved me and adored me. He then told me, He wanted to share something with me.

 

Then before me, I saw Jesus inviting people to come and eat with Him at this banqueting table. To eat of the delicious revelations and manna that He had prepared for them. I saw a young woman (who I believe is representative of the body of Christ) I looked in her hands and I saw half of her heart. She was holding onto this half of her heart so tightly.

 

Jesus began to speak to her of His great love for her, and His delight in spending time with her, when she interrupted Jesus and said that she had to go out and do something and would be right back.

 

The next scene that flashed before my eyes, was this young woman. She was running to her spouse and family, and trying to fit her half heart into the hearts of others. It wouldn't fit. She ran to her materialistic possessions trying to fit her half of her heart into them, and it wouldn't fit. I saw her trying to fit her half of her heart into job titles, and ministry titles, yet her half heart, just wouldn't fit completely. She pushed, and pushed and pushed, but to no avail. This half of her heart was just not meant to fit in these places.

 

Tired and weary, she walked back into the room where Jesus was sitting. He was sitting patiently, head bowed, praying for her. As she walked into the room, His eyes lit up, with sheer delight and a sparkle that touched every part of her being.

 

She sat down, and began to weep. Telling Jesus of her discontentment, her disappointment, and her broken heart. She began to tell Jesus of her deep sense of despair and lack of purpose and belonging. Her sadness that no one sees. Knowing not where she truly fits in, where she can truly rest and not have to perform.

 

Jesus lifted her head, and showed her His heart. Right in the very centre of His heart was a mould, a mould that was the shape of a heart. A heart within His heart.

 

He looked at her, with a great sense of delight and said "here". She reached forward, and placed the half of her heart into the very centre of Jesus' heart.

 

Tears welled in her eyes. For she realised that where she truly belongs is being united with Him, but not half heartedly. She looked deep inside herself and saw the other half of her heart, hidden deep within a place that no one could reach. This part of her heart held life's burdens, wounds, and disappointments. Bruised and battered. She reached deep inside of herself and took out this other part of her heart. She placed it in the hands of Jesus.

 

He leant forward weeping with delight in the beautiful surrender before Him. Placing both of His hands over His chest, He took the pain for her. He bore her disappointments, He bore her pain. In return, He gave her His heart. He placed within her, His heart.

 

She felt alive in a way she had never felt. She felt like she could finally breathe.

 

He spoke softly to her, "two hearts combined, you and I forever intertwined"

 

You belong in Jesus. When all else is stripped away, your constant foundation is Jesus Christ.

 

Your heart is united with Christ forevermore. Your life, is your intimacy and relationship with Him. Not meeting Him once in a while at His table, but feasting with Him daily, you will grow in ways you never dreamed, and the eyes of your heart opened to your Saviour in greater depths.

 

Do you meet with your Saviour, to truly see His heart?

 

You don't have to run back and forth, to find where you belong. To find a place of contentment, to find a place of healing and peace. You have it right before you. Within you.

 

There is a seat at the banquet table with your name on it. Jesus is sitting waiting for you at the banquet table. Jesus longs to show you, who you are.

 

Jesus leans over the table, and holds the hands of this young woman. His eyes meet hers. He looks deep within her where no one else can, and He whispers

 

"Two hearts combined, you and I forever intertwined"

 

Finally she has found her home