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« on: Sun Feb 01, 2009, 07:53:19 AM » |
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Hey there all,
I, with this message, will explain the promise I made in 2002.
Prior to August 2002 I had been studying the red book in the Right Use of Will series by Ceanne Derohan, in an attempt to understand who the heart daughter person was and is. As it turned out, I came to understand that I, glenda, am heart daughter, in 2002 and then I went into 'heartdaughter mode' and did a lot of activity both in the spirit and on earth, in that mode. That activity included some FIAT actions on behalf of God Almighty (which, of course He allowed me to do). In august of 2002 my work in extreme heart daughter mode, ended, and I landed in the hospital for 2 1/2 days.
As part of what i was doing, I made a solemn promise, in the spirit, to all the children of God that I would NOT FINISH the last days work leading to the coming of the kingdom of God, in the physical, on earth. I promised that I, alone, would not do that work. I made this promise because I understood that I COULD very easily and single handedly do such. And that IS the reason that I promised NOT to. I promised not to, because the children of God (that means everyone) should be allowed to usher in the kingdom themselves. This way they can have the experiences necessary to make them strong in their faith. This way they can live our their true destinies and have glorious memories of their work in bringing in the kingdom.
Now I want to tell you something else about me. I never make promises, because I learned early on, that promises lock you in and God's 'freshness' will be stifled and made stale when you lock yourself out of it due to making a promise on your own behalf. I knew that, or I should say, this was my understanding of promises, so that also is why I made the promise. I did not ever want to go back on the promise.
Also, in August 2002, my mission, in my mind/heart ended. I thought I was done.
Just as I just told you all, God is FRESH, and as time went by after 2002, things on earth and in the spirit got worse. ALSO, and listen to this carefully, I learned MORE truths about how bad things were, and I ended up having to do MORE WORK to help the KIDS (as I call all of you) to be better prepared to usher in the kingdom.
So, this all led up to the Spring of 2008. Last spring i was dog tired of all of this and i QUIT. My messages on this forum and blog announced that I quit. I started playing yugioh online. Then, however, I was led to the Lakeland Revival (online) and I was JUMPSTARTED again (I'm very thankful for this) and I was annointed with the Glory of God in a way that I never knew before. I am a very intellectual type of believer, heady, and I had never experienced the Glory of God like Lakeland brought into my life. And i needed it to. So here I was again, doing heartdaughter WORK all during the SUmmer of 2008, and I had no time to write about it much on my forums. I was in live chat rooms and in the Revival TWICE A DAY, SEVEN days a week until the revival ended in late august.
Then God took me into His WHIRLWIND and I did more heartdaughter work, more FIAT work, until Daniel's blessed day in December, and then I landed in the hospital AGAIN. The reason I land in the hospital from doing the extreme heartdaughter work, is that I SaCRIFICE Glenda's life to do this stuff, and Glenda/ ie me, I was pooped and just about dead, literally, I did die.
So I spent from dec 16 to jan 9 being just Glenda and learning self-care and learning DBT skills to help me get MY LIFE back, so I can enjoy the kingdom of God as plain old Glenda, which in truth, is all I am. I am just glenda the little girl born in roxbury massachusetts. I am not into all this I'm a special person of God stuff, AT ALL. Im sure you know that from my writings, everyone.
So, again, the PROMISE I made in 2002, comes back to FORE (see why and how it helps me?) and I am punched out, I quit, Im on vacation... etc etc
You children must usher in the Kingdom of God.
I am obeying God right now and looking for how He works out the coming of the kingdom IN MY LIFE, with MY FAMILY, in MY CITY. That also is clear in my writings.
I am not heartdaughter, I am Glenda. I am not in heartdaughter mode. I dont have any powers.
As you all know from my writings here, everyone, male and female, ARE HEARTDAUGHTERS, ie as I explained in the past, you all are overlayed with the heartdaughter pattern, the perfect pattern. Even Jesus was.
So... the promise is that I will not do all these whiz bang miraculous things in the physical to PROVE or PROOF the kingdom of God in the physical. I will not, because you children must and need to do it yourselves.
hopefully now you understand why I am not as engaged with you here, because it is not my place to continue to operate as if I am on heaven's time clock WORKING FOR GOD. I FINISHED my work. Im tired and God is not asking me to work more. Of course I am available as needed if He wants me to do something... but Glory to God, He has all of you now to ask, and many more can hear and obey.
So thank you so much for putting up with me, yes it may have seemed like I hijacked God's creation from time to time, if it seemed like that, He had a purpose in it, and gave me the FIAT power to do so, at those MOMENTS, but I, glenda, am just a little girl from roxbury. I am a servant of God.
I love you all forever, glenda
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